Ok now that I've said that here it goes. Mother's Day is this Sunday and of course it's a big deal. Probably hallmarks biggest selling card day. And I being a mother for almost 2 years can finally explain what is so important about being a mother. A single mother at that.
So why am I angry. I'm angry because 7 days out of the week I'm my daughters everything. Yes she goes with her dad on a visitation schedule but I'm still her primary caregiver. I kiss her ouchies, give her hugs, make her meals, feed her meals, change diapers, wash clothes, change diapers again, etc etc etc. I'm your modern day super women. And not only am I super woman I'm professor Xzavier teaching her everything I can all to have someone who pretends to parent come and undo everything I'm trying to teach her. I teach her what's right but it turns into what's wrong. I teach her how to use the potty he resorts to using a diaper out of pure laziness. I use products that calm her eczema. He uses soap that makes her itch out her mind. It's a pure opposite day in my life 24 hours s day. I feel like I want to pull out my hair all day.
It's insulting, disrespectful and just plain cruel. Sometimes I feel like he is purposely trying to confuse our daughter. I'm sorry let me use his words "his daughter". His daughter that he sees when he feels like it, when he doesn't have a party to attend, a game to watch, a something else that he chooses over her. His daughter that he is $4,000 behind in child support because he refused to help. Yes that's right his daughter.
He chastises me over everything I do but I do it all without him and without his money. Like I said insulting.
So what does this Mother's Day mean to me. Well since he won't let me even see her it means the same thing that it would any other day. It means that I'm her rock. I'm her provider. I'm her everything and despite what he says I'm her mother.
Happy Mothers Day Moms
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