Do you

So I was thinking about how I was going to  celebrate my bday. I already have made plans but until last Thursday I was seriously considering canceling. See I really wanted to stop celebrating as of last year. Last year was absolutely horrible. I really didn't do anything  and when I thought that I was going to have the opportunity to celebrate my bday I was told "April your birthday is over!"  Those exact words. From that day forward I said I would never mention celebrating my birthday again. 

It's funny how much of an influence people can have over you especially when your in a dark place and last year was really bad for me. With that one comment I felt like what was the point. Until someone who I just started forming a friendship with gave me some great encouragement. I think the words were somewhere along the lines of "do you". I'm not sure what she really meant by that but I feel like I'm slowly figuring it out. 

Regardless of how anyone feels about my bday I'm going to celebrate it exactly the way I want to. If it's all my friends or just me I need to celebrate it. Nobody except my parents and not even them are obligated to celebrate my birth. It's the day I was brought into this world and it is just as important to me as someone's else's whatever is important to them. I refuse to downplay it, act like it doesn't exist, or ignore it like other people including myself have done in the past. I have to make a big deal of myself because I am a big deal to myself. So I guess I'll do me !!!