Through the looking glass

Back to work today after 2 whole weeks of being off. Smh it was the hardest thing to do. When that alarm went off this morning I hit the snooze button so many times you would've sworn my name was Floyd Maywether. Don't act like yall haven't knocked an alarm clock out a time or two. Lol I just couldn't get up I was so comfortable in my bed it seemed pointless to do anything else. But then I thought about my daughter, and my house, and my bills and bills and more bills. That was enough motivation right there to face the cold outside world.

I think about all the other snooze buttons I've hit in my life just bc I didn't want to do them when I was supposed to. I put off losing weight, going to church, reading books, ending relationships, forming relationships. I was the ultimate procrastinator. Just like my bed I was comfortable with  where I was at, but unlike my bed I couldn't find the motivation to get up and get moving. I'd make excuses, be scared, or just plain lazy. Seven days ago we were on the precipice of 2015 and also on the precipice of  making resolutions we knew we weren't going to keep. Yup I'm guilty too. So what's our motivation to change? Is it a person, obligation, or just a pure desire of our heart. I personally believe in order to move from where you are  the desire in your heart has to be greater than any external thing. 

Change must come from within. One thing nobody can ever take from you (unless you give permission) is your sense of self. That longing you have that desire is something that can never be duplicated. It's like trying to tell someone how you feel but you can't because you're lost for words. So search for your hearts desire. Don't look to social media, don't ask your friends. Take some time and pray and ask to be given glasses to see inside your own soul.