Spring cleaning

Last week I spent my entire weekend cleaning my house. This is usually the time of year that most folks do their spring cleaning. I started from the bottom all the way to the top and I did as much as I could.  I went through old stuff and just threw everything that I had no use for  The next day I was in so much pain. My back hurt, my side hurt. I felt like I was broken.  But it was good because I had decluttered my house. 

A couple weeks ago I had a conversation with what I thought was my best friend. I never realized at that time that it would probably be our last conversation. It's like we just stopped talking to each other. I thought about reaching out a million times over but I finally came to the conclusion that just like we can spring clean our house we also can spring clean our lives. I realized that this relationship that I had held so highly was only being held up by me. I also realized that while I was of significance at one point in this persons life I had lost my lack luster. Not because I was no longer a good friend or that I didn't care for him. But that I had fallen into that old saying of "out with the old and in with the new". My friend no longer had a use for me. I cried over it. I talked about it. I even prayed about it. I finally was left with the question to myself mind you "why are you holding onto something that doesn't want to be held?"  So I cleaned house and now by writing this Im ultimately cleaning spirit by letting him go. 

Lesson learned is: sometimes we feel that we are constantly being rejected but more often than not  we are actually walking away from something or someone that  didn't recognize our worth.