Dearest daughter

When I became pregnant I was super excited. I was excited about everything I mean everything except, for finding out the gender. I was so anxious and I was praying that God was going to bless me with a boy. When I found out that I was having a girl, I cried. I know it sounds stupid but I actually cried. I thought to myself what am I going to do with a girl? I'm the least girly of them all. And oh the biggest one, I'm going to have to learn how to braid hair !!!!!! Lol. Yea dumb reasons. That's exactly why I never said anything because no one ever admits that they suffered from Gender Disappointment. Yup. It's a real thing. I know I should've been grateful to even be able to carry a child but I couldn't hold back the disappointment . I didn't understand why God would give me a girl....until today. 

We always ask why does this happen or why does that happen? And sometimes we miss the answer. Well most of the time we miss the answer because we don't ask the right question or we just refuse to see the truth. Today I was given the answer to my question. The Holy Spirit told me loud and clear. I was given a girl because I am suppose to teach her how to grow into a woman. 

When your a single parent. You have many tasks that are given to you without you even knowing that they are tasks. You just do them because you're suppose to. I didn't realize until today that one of my tasks is teaching womanhood to my daughter.  Just like I didn't know that I would be a single parent until a couple months ago. But see that was already a plan before I even knew what gender my baby was going to be. I was given the gender that could relate to me the best. I was given the gender that I could mold into a young woman and teach her the right things. Someone that wouldn't be exactly like me but better than I could ever imagine myself to be.  And that is an awesome thing. I'm so happy and grateful that I was given a little girl and grateful that I finally was given the reason why.

Everything happens for a reason but better yet everything happens as it is supposed to.