Listen up

Last night I let someone have it and when I say have it, I mean HAVE IT!!! In my mind they deserved it. They had been talking trash, talking out the side of they're neck, running their mouth and I just couldn't take it anymore. No I didn't cause any physical harm but I let my mouth do the talking without using my brain. Smh

While it felt good to finally "go in" on them. I ultimately became the person they are. Mean, hurtful, rude and ignorant. I became everything I hate, and became exactly who they have been portraying me out to be. I let them win!!

But and there's a big but in here. The difference between my weak moment and them as a person, is just that. It was a weak moment and that's the person they are. I can do everything in my power to never have that weak moment again and I promise I won't. I know it's true because unlike this other person I can acknowledge my mess ups, shortcomings, and once again weak moments. And as we all know you can only fix a problem when you acknowledge there's one to fix. 

So how do I fix it. I apologize to my self. "Self, I'm sorry". I forgive myself. "Self, I forgive you". And I also apologize and forgive the person. They may not accept it, they may not want it and they may not hear it. But you can only hear what you listen for and you can only listen if you're willing to hear.