Love

Every other Saturday I shed a tear. It's the day I dread the most. I feel like a piece of me is missing and although it's just for a little while it feels like an eternity. I know it seems crazy but whenever my daughter is away from me I feel this way. 

Yea I know I should enjoy my time, my peace, my chance to rest and although I do , I still miss her. No one ever could explain the feeling of being a mother to me until I actually became one.  To have a piece of you that is not you.  To see that piece running, playing, smiling, crying, laughing, speaking is extraordinary. It's like watching your heart in action. 

The love I feel for her and from her is something that can never be duplicated or replicated. Now I understand how much God loves me and how it pains him to see me turn away from him. That's why it's so important for me to continue this journey of growth. So I can become closer to Him than ever before.