Emotion detector

All my life I have been very "emotional". I've been accused of wearing my heart on my sleeve, the ability to see what I think on my face, and thinking with my heart instead of my head. I also know people who are emotionless. They say what they are thinking and never apologize for it regardless of the damage it does. They hurt people and have made the statement that they don't care. I lost a very close friend this year because of how I handle things and how they spoke to me. It really left me thinking about who's right and who's wrong. Should I walk around spouting obscenities and not care what people think. Or should I continue to "stay in my feelings". 

Yesterday I was left feeling very upset about something I did not do and apologized for it as well. I have always been that person apologizing for things I didn't do and taking ownership of it. That left me feeling more upset because I felt that because the person knows how emotional I am that gave them the ability to play on my weakness. So I kept asking myself, where do I go from here? What do I change so I'll never do and feel this way again?

The reality is I can't change the fact that emotional. I cant turn off the mechanism that allows me to pick up on others emotions either. I was made this way for a purpose. It allows me to help others that are in need. I'm a human E-MOTION Detector. What I can change however are my automatic thoughts regarding the emotion being about me. As my father would say I'm not that important or that powerful for everything to be about me. Now that doesn't mean that nothing is about me. It just means that I don't have to carry the weight of someone else's feelings. Nor do I have to apologize for something I didn't do. My shoulders just aren't that big.