Let it Go

For years I have suffered from anxiety. I’m always anxious, always worried, and always nervous. It’s one of the worse conditions to have. I absolutely hate feeling this way because it’s hard to stop my anxiety once it’s triggered. It’s like watching a car crash happen before your eyes and not having the power to do anything to stop it.

Mostly I get anxious about situations that are beyond my control. I know your thinking, um you can’t control anything. While that’s true I don’t become anxious with anything that I’m able to manipulate. School, work, bills…stuff like that. My biggest problem is relationships. Not just romantic but any type of relationship. In any type of relationship there’s always a variable that’s unpredictable and that’s the other person. It’s so frustrating at times, darn that free will thing, lol.

I’ve come to realize that as much as I want to believe that I don’t have a control problem, I actually do. So how do I let go? How do I allow people to be who they are? First I have to admit and accept that I don’t have as much power as I think I do. Second, a person is going to be who they are regardless of what I do to try and change them. And third, the more focus I put on others, the less time I spend working on me. SO with that I say….

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things and PEOPLE I cannot change;
courage to change the things and PERSON I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.