Table for one

So I've been thinking about the difference between being alone and being lonely. I've always been the type to shy from doing stuff solo. I've been to the movies alone but to eat a meal.....uh no. I've always found it necessary to have someone with me. Like the thought of going places by myself made me look like a looser. Like I don't have any friends. I've always admired those who are able to go at it alone and not worry about who's watching and just do their thing. 

Lately I've been forced to do more things alone. I think the biggest thing was participating in caribbean carnival by myself. I didn't want to nor did I plan to, but it happened anyway. I was so scared at first but it ended up being the best experience I've ever had. It also taught me something about myself. It taught me that I'm stronger than I gave myself credit for. And also that I have more fun. I'm able to be me without anyone judging me. 

So am I alone? yea.  Am I lonely? No. Because loneliness is a state of mind. And I've made up my mind to be comfortable with me. 

Gotta go enjoy my date with myself. Lata yall :)